AuthorHouse author M. West has reached the halfway mark in her intriguing series of guest articles for the AuthorHouse Author’s Digest. She has set her heart on taking her book Solace to PitchFest Los Angeles 2012, but has been dogged every step of the way.
She is convinced now is the right time. It’s fate. But how far would she need to go to make it happen?
What Happens Once All the Money and the Ideas Have Dried Up?
By M. West
When all options were exhausted and I had nowhere else to turn, would I ask?
I sighed in defeat and dialed her number. I couldn’t believe it had come to this. I pretended not to notice her obvious surprise that I was on the other end of the line. I asked and waited for the inevitable excuses that would follow my request.
They came, as I knew they would.
I felt ashamed for calling, for going back on my promise to myself. I apologized for burdening her with my request. She denied that I had burdened her and sounded concerned, though unable to help.
I hung up.
It was like pouring salt in my wounds while drinking vinegar.
Didn’t I know it would be useless? And now I’d opened my heart to be injured where it really counted. I hated myself for allowing me to be so vulnerable. It was just money after all. If I lost it, I lost it and I’d figure a way to make it back, eventually.
Which all brought me back to this point: why was THIS the right step to take?! Was I supposed to lose all my money? Was I supposed to come up with another idea?
I didn’t have any.
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